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The first 10 deviants who post in this journal will be featured. I will go though your gallery and choose 3 of your deviations I like the most and post them in my journal for everyone to see!

The catch?

You have to put this in your journal as well if you posted!

Exactly...FRACK!! Frack, Frack, Frack, Frack, FRACK!!

Spring Break is over and done with and now school has started back up. My break was...ok. Except that the day I got home and then went out to go get dinner...I got into an accident. No one was hurt and no one else was in the car with me. All I got was a sore neck and shoulders and I'm happy I had my seat belt on. I hit two pot holes, the first one made me lose control of my car and the second one made my car go flying. She flipped/rolled, totally MISSED a sign showing that the road was going to curve ahead and landed. I've already been told that she was totaled. Both the Sheriff and Wrecker guy told me that.

Friday, the insurance company FINALLY called and told my folks that my car is officially totaled. I feel horrible about it. I know, you can replace a vehicle, but not a life. That's what I've been told over and over again. Still, I can't help it but feel awful about it. I'm very glad no one was on the road and that no one else was in the car with me. I'm happy my mom was home when I called, and that she called my dad JUST before he was going to leave from work. The scariest thing is, is that my airbags didn't even go off and my front bumper was ripped off. A lot of damage was done, and as I've been told, I was darn lucky to come out alive from it.

I haven't done any homework since I was home. All I've been doing is working and sometimes got the chance to see . I needed to work though, very very badly. Hopefully I can get more hours this coming summer and now that one person that everyone in the store doesn't like is gone...I'm happy! Seriously...she's a Psycho!

I've been really terrible about trying to draw. I know I still owe a drawing and I promised her too. I'm sorry that I'm extremely late . Terribly sorry.

There are other drawing's I want to do too for other people. The problem is that I can't get motivated since all I do is draw for homework.

I want to draw for (I want to draw an up close picture of Taz) and many more...I just need to get motivated and draw more.

Plus, I have a Stats exam to study for that I have wednesday and part of my project in 3D Modeling is due today tuesday and and and....so much stuff right now. *holds her head*

All I can say is that the best part of my Spring Break was seeing my folks, seeing and seeing my sister and brother in law AND a few people I missed at work.

Well, Ryan did come up for his Spring Break, and now he's back home...sadly. He flew up to NYC on Monday and took the bus up to Oneonta on Tuesday and then he had to go back Saturday. Even though it was a short time we spent together, it was well spent and def. worth it.

When I saw him, I'm surprised I didn't knock him down after that huge hug I gave him. Last time I saw him was the beginning of January, so this..was a much needed visit. Now it's my turn to go down to Florida and see my boy in about...hopefully...two months.

ALSO....*drum roll please*.......he bought me a tattoo!! It's my first tattoo AND I told him it would be a wonderful and ONLY early, early birthday present. It's an outline of a wolf paw print on my lower back and I LOVE it!! Seriously, just about every time I pass by a mirror, I have to stop and look at it. Whenever I look at it, I think more and more of Ryan. I mean, I do think enough about him already but looking at the tattoo makes me think of him even more. I'm the luckiest woman alive and wouldn't trade in what I have for the world!!

Wow, so the weather up here has been really strange lately. One day it's crappy weather, the next day it's nice and sunny AND 50 degrees, the next day it's crappy again and then for two days straight it's beautiful again. Well, almost two days straight, it was beautiful for most of the day and then it got really, really gloomy. The sun is gone and now replaced by clouds that look like they are ready to drop snow and rain. *forecasted for tonight*

Lately I haven't been able to get any sleep due to the idiots on my floor and stress. Last night there was a cop on our floor talking to a guy who sounded like he was on drugs, asking him questions and all that jazz. What freaked me out is that the cop was by my room waiting for the kid to come out of the bathroom. Yes, unfortunately MY room is located right next to the guys bathroom. Then I heard the girls across the hall screaming and running up and down the hallway AND pounding on their bedroom door. I guess one of the roommates wasn't in their room and the other forgot her key. Plus, they were drunk off their asses. I am glad that I have my room, I just don't appreciate the rude idiots on my floor.

On top of that I have a lot of art projects to do and it's stressing me out. Lately I have been getting more and more headaches and that isn't good. I've tried to relax, but that's not even working. I've also been trying to get a job and no one is hiring. It sucks when you are a college student and you don't have a job. I know sometimes it's better not to have a job while going to school, but sometimes you need that job to earn money to keep up on school and other expenses. I need the money because my major is running me dry. I am a Computer Art major, but I'm also taking other art classes that require a lot of material that have to be kept stocked up. I also need a job when I go home for breaks and most importantly, to save up. Second most important reason is to see my fiance, Ryan.

I don't get to see him that much. We do talk just about every day, but seeing him face to face would be so much better. So far he's been up here a lot more than I have down there in Florida. I feel horrible about it, but when you don't have a job you're sorta screwed. We were hoping he could come up during his Spring Break, but it sounds like that isn't even going to happen. It sucks, really really sucks. I tried not to keep my hopes up about, but you know how it is...you can't help it.

So now my sunny day and my sunny mood has turned into a gloomy day and a gloomy mood. I tried, honestly I tried, but my heart isn't into it anymore. I can't even draw for the hell of it anymore because that's all I do now is art. I can't do anything fun even when I try because it always turns out to be crap.

I hate it when my sunny day goes away and then turns around and shoves the gloominess in my face. I hate it that I keep my hopes up even when I shouldn't and then get disappointed even though it's not the other person's fault. I hate it that I can't enjoy drawing anymore because that's all I do. I hate days like today, the sunshine was only a mask for the later on disaster.